“The First Question, the oldest question in the Universe, that must never be answered, hidden in plain sight”
Sorry, I have been watching a lot of Doctor Who lately and though I would throw that reference in there. But seriously why do I feel the need to dress as a Woman. The answer to this question has eluded me through all my searching. Some references I have found are a Wiki page here and another article found here.
The second article says “Men who cross-dress are not mentally ill. Indeed, psychologists in the USA have decided that cross-dressing comes within the normal range of male sexuality unless it becomes a compulsive obsession” but that does not explain why I want to do it.
Is there some thing cross wired (no pun intended) in my brain that drives me to this or some other external influences that have re-wired my brain into it’s current state. I can’t say this has anything to do with my parents as my childhood would be explained as pretty much late 70’s child standard. No internet, bike helmets or safety approved toys were the standard for kids of my generation. I did not have any influence that I know of in childhood that would take a normal(ish) boy and make him want to wear a dress.
I am pretty sure is started when I was about 7 or 8 years old which would have put me in around the grade 3 area. I some how doubt there is a connection but also at that time I was also diagnosed with a learning disability. Just the act of trying to write this blog makes my brain hurt getting the info from my head into the computer. Pretty sure a learning disability can’t drive me to dressing but I added it none the less.
At this point in life I know I will never know why I do it but I have at least accepted it and come to a slight sense of peace with myself. My wife does accept this is who I am and although at times it has caused various amounts of friction between us we have come to a nice balance at this time. As stated in the second article stress does play a very high role in my dressing. There have been points when I have not had a urge to dress for up to 2 years at a time but is seems lately stress level have been at almost through the roof levels.
Thanks for reading yet another rambling on blog
Image taken from Penningtons, Great plus size clothing store.