Cynthia’s 2016 in Review

 

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Another year is almost at a close and this year has brought some new things for Myself.  Just thought before the year was over I would review some of these things.

Telling the Kid

I had posted it before here about my child telling us that they identify as non-binary or gender fluid.  We do not use She or He but instead use Them and They.  We have joined a local group for parents of Transgender Children which is kinda weird going to because of my own Crossdressing.

The wife and I decided that we should tell the Child because it may help her knowing that she was not the only one in her family who at one point had similar issues.  It seemed to go okay with he just saying that’s cool.  I did get some questions like do you own dresses, do you have bra’s and so on and so forth.

We got them a appointment with a counselor about the gender stuff and other issues she was.  We made it clear to her she was able to talk about anything she wanted and it came to light that she had wished we had never told her.  This is a evolving situation and for the most part I have backed off saying anything about.  The one good thing that came from the situation though is now I don’t have to hide my painted toe nails anymore.

I had a huge blog post planned for this but seeing as the situation is still ongoing I will wait and then give you the full story.

Buying Stuff

It was a few years ago now that I finally was able to shop for stuff by myself.  I started by picking up small stuff at the drug store, Razors, Panty hose and the likes and then finally moved up to clothes.  My first trip to Addition Elle by myself I am sure I was 10 shades of red more than normal.  With my list in hand and my cover story of it was for my wife I picked up my first few items.  I was floating higher than a kite after that trip and that fully opened the door.

Now I have no issues walking into either Addition Elle of Penningtons (My 2 favorite stores) and just grabbing whatever I want and heading to the cash.  In my opinion the best invention for a Crossdresser shopping has been the cell phone.  I am able to open the web page and just ask the sales associate if this is in stock,  makes the purchase way easier.

But up to this point I have still not ventured to purchase my current enemy,  MAKE UP.  That was until about 3 months ago.  I am still having a ongoing battle with finding the right shade of foundation to use and to this point I still am.  While scanning the local drug store chain flyer I found the product I wanted was on sale but only for 2 days this being day one.  So next day off to the drug store which at the time was pretty busy and made me a bit nervous but I went on.  I had to make sure the aisle was clear before I entered and made my way down to the Foundations.  Just like every time I go to buy make up the shelves look like a tornado had hit and nothing was where it was supposed to be and I had to search almost every bottle to find the color I was looking for.  I found them and headed picked up a couple other small things and headed for the cash.  The line was not long and I ended up at the cashier pretty quickly.  I put my stuff on the counter and put the foundation out last,  as she grabbed each item and scanned them through.  I was sure I would get a second look as she rang through the foundation but her head never looked up from her task as she placed the foundations in the bag and I was met with no odd looks just the obligatory “Will that be cash or credit”.

Another mission  crossed off the list and since then I have been back and bought more without still finding the right color.  Seems I am doomed to look patchy and off color forever.

I am still not comfortable with letting most people know about this side of me but I am to the point where I am not going to let the fear I felt for so long stop me from doing what I want to anymore.

Overall and 2017

Other than all the other things that went on in the world 2016 was not a bad year for me.  My little space here on the internet turned 3 years old and I am still amazed myself that I have kept it up this long.

I still have a ton of stuff I can do for Cynthia’s Lingerie Drawer it’s just a matter of having time to sit down and write them.

And to all my readers have a safe and Happy New Years and here’s to seeing and reading all your blogs in the future.

Thanks for reading

Cynthia

 

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Happy Non Denominational Festive Season

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It had popped into my head a few weeks ago about how I would love to do a Crossdressing version of Twas the night before Christmas.  I decided to do a Google search first and of course I was already beaten to the punch.  Below I have posted the poem itself and a link to the original site I found it on.  I really like the message in this poem so I just had to share it here.

‘Twas the night before Christmas, and all thru the house
I was making my plans to look more like my spouse
I carefully laid out my very best clothes
My bra and my panties, my slip and my hose

My stockings weren’t hung by the chimney tonite
They were on me instead, feeling sensually tight
My dress was of velvet, a burgundy red
And on my long nails a new polish was spread

With makeup and jewelry, high heels on my feet
I was looking so sexy, and feeling so sweet
When out in the yard there arose such a noise
That I sprang from my bedroom, forgetting my poise

The moon on the snow with it’s brilliant white glitter
Reminds me of lace, to set my heart a-twitter
When what to my long-lashed eyes should appear
But a person in red with a sleigh and reindeer

But I couldn’t tell, was it a ‘he’ or a ‘she’
The one with the pack was dressed somewhat like me
There in the sleigh was this ‘cutsey’ old flirt
With a white wig and makeup, a red blouse and skirt

The reindeer were sparkling, with rhinestones and pearls
And their antlers in ribbons, so they all looked like girls
When s/he stepped from the sleigh, to my eyes were revealed
Her knee-hi black boots with their seven-inch heels

Santa just blushed, but I stood there and smiled
And said, “Hello, my dear, can you stay for awhile?”
“Well you finally caught me”, he said with a pout
“At this time on Christmas, folks are seldom about.”

“I don’t go enfemme very ofen at home,
Mrs Clause doesn’t like it, so I do it alone.
“So when I give out goodies to make others smile
“I like to feel pretty and femme for awhile.”

“So I ride off dressed up, from my hi-heels to wig,
“On Christmas eve night while I’m doing my gig.”
I said, “Don’t worry Santa, your secret is safe
Why don’t you come in and just freshen your face.”

We sat and we talked and vented our passion
For feminine frills and the latest new fashions
We finally parted with a hug and a kiss
S/he said, “I must go now, or some children I’ll miss”

I went to my party and had a great time
With music and laughter and good food and wine
But when I returned and looked under my tree
I found some new pretties from sweet Santa to me

Lacy panties, a bra and a soft satin blouse
Perfumes and some candles to light up my house
But it wasn’t the goodies that swept away my blues
It was knowing that Santa was a crossdresser too

So next time don’t judge all the people you meet
By what they are wearing when out on the street
For in being onesself, there’s no ‘wrong or right’
Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night

I found the poem on the Dirty Xmas website Here.  Not the greatest name but it’s a collection of Twas the night before Christmas parodies.

The line I had thought of that gave me the whole idea in the first place was from second verse.  “The Stockings weren’t hung by the chimney with care, Those things are expensive you wouldn’t even dare”

So to all my readers have a Wonderful Holiday season.

Thanks For Reading

Cynthia

 

 

Cynthia’s Blog: 3 Years later

 

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I very rarely have thing’s that I do  last very long.  Chalk it up to the ADD my wife swears I have or just the fact that I always have to be doing something new.  But today the notification popped up that I have been on WordPress blogging for 3 years now and it’s hard to believe I have kept up with it for this long.

To date I have 55 followers,  Over 2500 views and 70 published posts.  I even amazed myself that I was able to come up with that many posts over the years.  Writing is not really a easy task for me to complete as I have always had a issues of getting my thoughts from my head to paper (Or keyboard) and have it make sense.  Sometimes one post will take me months to complete and have it seem to make sense to people other than me.  Someone once told me just to write and post and not worry about editing otherwise it will never be what you wanted.  I have tried that method and still find myself taking forever to post.

One of the reasons I started my blog was because of the lack of information I was able to dig up in my younger days.   Had I been able to browse the internet when I was starting this journey I may have not felt so alone.  One hope I had for this blog was to let people know they are not alone and that there is always a bright lining to every grey cloud.

So after 70 posts what are some of my favorites?

That’s just a few that I think were some of my better works on here.

So here is to three years so far and hopefully more.

Thanks all for reading and following

Cynthia

Cynthia’s Lingerie Drawer: Ashley Graham Dreamer Fatal Attraction Unlined Bra and Thong with Lace

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This was a purchase from the Summer of 2016.  In one of my deal hunting adventures I was able to snag this Bra and Panty set again from my favorite place to shop for lingerie Addition Elle.  I must apologize for the picture quality of the bra as it did not seem to photograph too well.dsc03428

The Web site description reads as “Enjoy this unlined Ashley Graham bra with natural shaping that doesn’t add a size. The Fatal Attraction plus size bra combines unlined lace and mesh in a two layer cup with contrast trim, while creating the perfect fit with a sexy peek a boo effect. Double straps suggest a naughty bondage look. Opt for a halter neckline to mix things up. The triple strip at back wing (hook & eye) creates a modern caged look. A perfect match for the Retro Brief, this sizzling bra with pearl, sparkle and bow detail is a sophisticated item for the bride to be’s collection

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One of my favorite things about this Bra is that it is unlined so it works well for under dressing as it does not tend to show through and sits flat on my chest unlike lined or lightly padded bra’s do.  I was a fan of the adjustable straps when I first say the bra on the website.  You can remove them and re-position them in a criss-cross orientation but for the life of me I could not figure out how to get it on in this set up,  would almost take 2 people to get it like that.

The other half to this set was the Retro Brief Panty that I thought I had grabbed but getting home I realized I had picked up the Lace Thong Panty and was a little set back by this development.  I had never worn a thong before and was a little apprehensive about even trying them on.  I was pleasantly surprised at how comfortable they actually were and how after a few minutes I did not even realize I had a thong on.  Web site description is “A little lace centerpiece accents this lightweight mesh thong that’s set to stun—even more so with its caged back

Even though I can’t put the bra into alternate strap configuration and I bought the Thong instead of the Brief I still really like the look and feel of this set.

Thanks for Reading

Cynthia

 

Cynthia’s Holiday Wish List 2016

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We again are very close to the Holiday season and with that in mind I decided to go ahead and do a wish list for some stuff that I would love to find under the Christmas tree.

Penningtons Lace Pencil Skirt is just gorgeous in my opinion.  It has everything I love all wrapped up into one.  I love lace designs and with the black background.

 

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It reminds me of a Lingerie set I reviewed back awhile ago in  Cynthia’s Lingerie Drawer.  They would pair very well together in my opinion.

And of course to finish off the new skirt there has to be a new top to go along with it.  I could not decide between the two Addition Elle tops in either black or white.

I would lean more towards he white one myself but I think the black could be paired nicely.

 

Can’t have a new Holiday Outfit without a new pair of shoes.  Torrid has recently opened up a store not too far away from where I live.  Searching around their website I found this little number that should pair well with the skirt (I think).

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And what is a new Holiday outfit without  some Holiday themed lingerie.  Although not mentioned as such in the Addition Elle website you have to admit with the festive red and black lace these to have a Holiday feel to them.

2016 was a year I was at times able to dress a little more than I normally could because the Child was away at some camps and staying over at friends houses so I was able to practice my make up more than I ever have before.  Awhile back I picked up a ECOTOOLS Day to Night 6 piece brush set and was amazed and what a decent set of tools can to to help.  Although the set looks different now it can be seen here.  I think my next logical step would be to pick up the Essential Eye Set to try and work on my shadow skills.  I really must say I was very pleased with the quality of these brushes.

And last but not least I would love to get a gift card for either MAC or Sephora.  It would be really nice if I could actually work up the courage to go into one of these places and get myself some real matching foundation.

So that’s my 2016 Holiday wish list.  Love it hate it?  leave me a comment and tell me what’s on your list.

Thanks for reading

Cynthia

 

 

Lots of change

So recently it was confirmed that our child considers herself as Gender Fluid.  She had been talking to her mother for a couple of years now about how she feels but it was not until recently that her mother was able to put a phrase to how she feels.

I was more than pleased to know that they were able to come to us with this information.  We have let her know since a small child that no matter what we would always love her no matter what.  I know what it’s like to have to hold onto a secret like this without being able to tell anyone.  I spent 13 years holding onto this and could tell no one.

We have signed up and  will be attending a workshop for parents of kids and youth who are identifying as transgender or gender diverse and hopefully get some more info to make sure we are doing everything we need to at this point.

After all of this had come out the wife brought up Cynthia to her therapist which for the past 20 some years she has always skirted over.  Her therapist asked how I had dealt with my stuff over the years and even suggested maybe about telling our child about me.  We have talked about it a little and have decided that right now in the thick of all of this and with some other things going on that now is not the best time to tell her.

So when will be a good time to tell her?  at this point I really don’t know.  We have been throwing out some hints and doing some joking around but there is no immediate date set in stone when we will site her down and have the talk.

Do you have children and do they know about your dressing?  Let me know how you would feel about your child knowing about your dressing.

Thanks for reading

Cynthia

Fashion Upgrade

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Summer is almost over and Fall will soon be upon us,  it will soon be time to break out the Razor and  nail polish and get ready for this dressing season.

This summer seemed to go by like a flash,  A very hot and dry flash.  But at the end of Summer comes the end of season sales and this year I had the time and money so I figured it was time to update my wardrobe.  I have had hand me downs and thrift store buys for far too long and it was time to upgrade and scratch some things off the list I had wanted for awhile.

The first store I was prompted by with summer sales was Penningtons which is a Canadian store owned by the same parent company as Penningtons

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Short Sleeve Crochet Dress Front

I get emails from the company when they have deals or sales and I was prompted about a 50% off sale about mid July.  Scanning the website I came across the Short Sleeve Crochet dress to the left and I love lace so it seemed like a great match.

The Penningtons website description read as “Revamp your dress code in this stylish plus-size dress! It has a rounded neck, keyhole opening at back, short sleeves, a lovely patterned crochet overlay with stretchy knit lining and soft chiffon insert at back, as well as an elastic waistband. It offers a flowing, flattering fit with a high-low hem. Complete the look with heels!

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I picked up the Dress in Black and Wild Aster

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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I was also able to pick up a nice lace skirt as well.  The web site described it as “Add a feminine touch to your work wardrobe with this pretty plus-size dress! It features a comfortable pull-on waistband, hidden zipper at side, 100% cotton patterned lace top layer and stretchy knit lining underneath. Team it with a blouse for a fabulous office look!

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I also needed some new tops to go along with the new skirt so I picked up a couple.

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I had to pick up just one more dress though as my closet is sorely lacking them and I found another short sleeved lace dress.

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To top it all off I picked up some necklaces for the new outfits.

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After Penningtons it was sale time at Addition Elle also with a 50% off.   By the time the wife got there though the sale rack had been pretty much picked through.  I did find a nice new top that would work well with lots of my other skirts.

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I also picked up a couple of new bras as well

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Both are from the Ashley Graham Collection.  The black one is the Dreamer Fatal Attraction Unlined Bra.  Addition Elle website reads “Enjoy this unlined Ashley Graham bra with natural shaping that doesn’t add a size. The Fatal Attraction plus size bra combines unlined lace and mesh in a two layer cup with contrast trim, while creating the perfect fit with a sexy peek a boo effect. Double straps suggest a naughty bondage look. Opt for a halter neckline to mix things up. The triple strip at back wing (hook & eye) creates a modern caged look. A perfect match for the Retro Brief, this sizzling bra with pearl, sparkle and bow detail is a sophisticated item for the bride to be’s collection“.

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The back straps on this bra can be removed and re-ordered into a criss cross patterns for a sharper look.  Although I have tried to put it on in this configuration and cannot get into it.

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The second bra was lined cup bra in a light pink tone called Ballet. “This sexy Ashley Graham bra is lightly padded for full support without bulk. Trimmed at the cups and center gore with scalloped eyelash lace. Straps and wings are kissed with delicate crown picot elastic. Wear this plus size bra with a matching Ashley Graham panty!

I did pick up the matching underwear for both bra’s only issue was I was not paying attention and ended up with thongs.  I have never worn a thong before and it was definitely a new experience but not as bad as I thought it would be.

 

Years ago I bought a pair of heels from a thrift shop,  not the best looking in the world but they worked for me and helped me with learning how to walk in heels.  Over the years they have worn out so bad and at one point I fell in them causing a rip in the side.  It was finally time to take the plunge and get myself a nice new pair of heels so off to Payless shoes which as far as I know is the only local store we have in town that sells heels in a size 12.

With the Payless Bogo sale I was able to get a decent black pair of heels and a second pair for the low price of about $7.00,  not a bad deal I think.  The plaid one should pair nice with the skirt or any of the 3 dresses and black goes with anything.

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My final sale purchase is also met with a bit of sadness.  Sally Beauty Supply  is where I have been picking up my fake nails and stickers that hold the nails on,  I had them in another post way back called Hard as Nails.  As it turns out Sally Beauty will no longer be stocking the tip stickers and there will be no replacement.  When I found this out via twitter I almost ran to the local store and picked up every last pack they had and 2 more boxes of nails.  For good measure I picked up 5 new polishes.

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I really like the Nina Ultra Pro nail polishes.  The coverage is great and the brushes are huge compared to other brands I have tried.

The colors from left to right are:

  1. Plum of the Earth
  2. French Roast
  3. Happily Ever After
  4. Ruby Road
  5. Glistening Plum

I would like to thank my wife for putting up with me and letting me drag her around to all these store to pick up all the new clothes.

If you have made it this far I thank you for reading and hope you enjoyed.

Thanks

Cynthia