A Change in Attitude

Things change,  that is a given in life.  But some things I never intended to change seem to have.

For as long as I can remember I have always said I would never go out dressed.  Firstly the city I live in is very small and there is always a chance you could run into someone you know and secondly I am not really big on going out at all,  some would even say I am anti-social.  It’s not so much that I don’t like hanging out with people it’s just that I am very uncomfortable around people I don’t know.

That bring us to this week at having a conversation with t a friend that knows about Cynthia.  I had asked her if she could crochet me a set of breast forms but she up until this point was unable to get the proper type of material.  She informed me she had found it and was going to be starting them as soon as she has the time.  We got into a discussion of different types of forms and how they move and how they look,   she commented how it really did not matter how mine moved due to me never going out.  I agreed and we talked a little more before I had to go.

Later on I was thinking about how I had answered this question and was not sure at this point if I had given the correct answer.  I seem to have gained a small nagging feeling that at some point I should go out at least once just to be able to say I have done this.  Now for me to go out and pass is not a option seeing that before heels I am already almost 6′ tall and more than average weight (A lady never tells).  I think this change has been coming slowly for a little while now.  In the last couple of years I have lost some of the fear of going into stores and purchasing some stuff for myself like razors, shaving gel and pantyhose,  but that’s still all stuff I can pass on as picking up for the wife.  I have also been able to go out Underdressed on quite a few occasions in the last few months and have talked to a local make up artist to get a possible appointment to have my foundation matched.

I did mention to my friend the next day about how her statement made me question my long held belief that I would never be going out.  Her advice was to pick a larger city and maybe make it on a pride weekend festivities and as she stated be in a secure place “While you get your freak on”.  She is so awesome.

Cynthia