What did I put my wife through? Tales of the Pink Fog.


You know,  I don’t think I have ever apologized to my wife for all the hell I put her through when I would get into “Pink Fog’s” years ago.

For anybody wondering the “Pink Fog” can be described as an intense desire towards your dressing.  Whether that means the actual act itself or wanting to go and buy things for the act.  At one point or another, I was guilty of all that.  And in some respects, I may have been slightly worse than some others.  After a conference, my wife picked up a pamphlet that described the signs of Attention Deficit Disorder in adults,  I actually met 10 of the 12 criteria.  One of the biggest being Hyper Focusing.

Well, what is Hyper Focusing you may ask?

“People with ADHD may immerse themselves so completely in an activity that they want to do or enjoy doing to the point that they become oblivious to everything around them. This concentration can be so intense that an individual loses track of time, other chores, or the surrounding environment. While this level of intensity can be channeled into difficult tasks, such as work or homework, the downside is that ADHD individuals can become immersed in unproductive activities while ignoring pressing responsibilities.”

The quote is taken from here.

Yup,  that’s me in a nutshell,  so that means I can hyperfocus on my dressing to the point where it can be an extreme thought in my head.  What have I done to my poor wife.

The dressing according to my wife was never the problem,  it was when I was incessantly bugging about it that it became a problem.  Whenever I wanted something new or wanted to dress it was her that took the brunt of having to hear about it.  It could be for days or weeks on end that I would go on about it,  looking back it makes me feel like a huge pain.

Thankfully I did (I hope) get better with the Pink Fog.  Firstly because I was able to get over my fears of buying things for myself and secondly because my dressing has evolved to the point where I don’t really go into dressing hiatuses anymore.  The dressing is always close to my thoughts no matter what time of year or how I am feeling anymore,  although I still do find when stressed I do want to dress more still.

Just to get the other side of this conversation I decided to ask my wife some questions about it.

1: How would you describe how my pink fogs affected you? It became your only focus, the only thing you would talk about, the only shopping you wanted to do. It made me want to avoid you.


2: To the best of your recollection, how often did they occur? In the beginning every 4 or 5 months. But they have lessened.


3: What was worse, wanting to dress, wanting to buy things, or just me talking about it? Wanting to buy things. I hate shopping.


4: Was there a time when it became worse? When stress picked up.


5: Did you ever just want the dressing and fogs to go away? No, it was part of you. I accepted that before we were even married. The fog at times I wanted you to focus on something else.


6: I am better now, Right? Yes you are a lot better but I think part of that is because you can feel comfortable going out shopping on your own. I have never liked clothing shopping,  buying makeup and I despise shoe shopping. It just feels like a waste of time and money to me. It has never been me. I am comfortable in Jean’s and tank tops, I barely wear makeup and I would go around barefoot if I could. You call me a hippie. lol, My thing is books, art, wool.

Love ya!
So I was beyond annoying at times,  and when I look back at it I really regret being that way.  I am so glad I was able to get over my fears of going out and buying things for myself,  I think it’s been easier on both of us.
So In closing,  I am very sorry for what I put you through my dear and I am so glad that you accepted me and are still here with me now.  Here is to another 20 or so years.


Thanks for reading


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How’s the Isolation going?


I miss my wife,  I miss my Kid and I miss the old normal world we had.  Other than that life’s going great.

I am on week four without my wife and kid here and it’s lonely, very lonely.  I can deal with the silence,  but it’s not being able to be with my family that’s the hardest part.  Like I mentioned in my last post,  my wife has had to leave to look after her mom who has had a stroke and is recovering at home.  Since I am still working I am supposed to limit my contact with them until the social isolation restrictions are lifted here.  We only had a handful of confirmed cases here but I can’t take the chance that I could pass it onto my MIL or my wife for that matter.  So my nights are spent at home by myself with only 2 cats for company and let me tell you,  they are terrible conversationalists.

At most I might see my wife and kid an hour or 2 in the span of a week and that’s just when I drop off mail or groceries,  most of our contact now is either text or phone.  It’s the little things I find I miss most,  sitting around watching TV,  eating supper together or heading out like we used to for a trip to the second-hand store to make fun of some of the more unusual things there.

But on a slight upside, seeing as I have the house all to myself it does open up a ton of possibilities for dressing when I have the time.  Most nights I don’t really feel like doing a whole session with makeup and the lot so when I get home I just have a shower and do all that stuff and slip into my nightgown and relax for the rest of the night other than some small chores,  and if I am feeling really good I might even put a splash of lipstick on.

Depending on what I have to do on the weekends I can usually get one day dressed then maybe a half-day if I can fit it in.  I usually try to get all my chores out of the way as early as possible trying not to be too loud to bother other people in the apartment with vacuuming and such.  Then usually by 10 AM, I am all done so I can head off for the bathroom for a shower, shaving.  20190531_153958I can be sitting at my temporary makeup desk AKA the kitchen table.  I can leave my makeup out all the time and even have the room to set up my makeup mirror which is a big help.  This is where I have really been taking my time,  I don’t have to hurry and get my face on.  I can take my time and play with some different colors and styles,  so far it has worked out pretty well.

I am still using the face and eye primers before makeup application and I gotta say they really do help out as far as keeping things in place.  I never really thought they would make all that much difference but they really do.20190604_141407

I try to plan my outfit in my head while I do my makeup,  something fancier at first, and then get into something more casual for the rest of the day/night.  I would love to be able to take pictures and I really do try but the lighting in our apartment is horrendous and even though I take a ton,  most don’t turn out at all.  So it seems I am limited to bathroom mirror selfies or selfies taken in front of the bedroom window where I can get some decent natural light.20190601_144750

So that’s how my isolation has been going.  At this point, Ontario is starting to work on how it will re-open the economy when the instances of new cases drop below a certain number but there is no hard date set as of yet.  So we will continue on like this for the foreseeable future.

I hope all of my readers are safe and healthy.  Keep your chins up and lipstick on,  we will get through this.


Thing’s never stay the same.


So in my last post, I made mention of how my wife has had to go and look after her Mom for at least the next little while,  what I did not get into was the reasoning,  My mother-in-law had a stroke.

The stroke was not as severe as it could have been but at this time she is still suffering the effects of such a dangerous event to the brain.  Her mobility has been decreased and she is still getting confused at times, all of which is normal according to her Doctors.  She should have been in the hospital for at least a week after a stroke of this nature but right now hospitals here would rather you go home and hopefully not end up in ICU with COVID-19 as well.

So depending on what gets discussed after the next 4 weeks of waiting and how well her mom has recovered, there is a chance that we may have to move in with her to help her in the long term.  Currently, my mother-in-law lives alone in a decently sized house all by herself,  there is ample room for my wife, kid and myself to move in and help out while still keeping a space that can be just for us if needed.

My main concern with this as you can tell seeing as I am writing about it on my blog will be my freedom and ability to be able to dress in peace.  I have no issues helping out with my MIL but of course, my mind always goes to the worst-case scenario?  Even with careful planning, there is always the chance that I could be caught by my MIL and I am not sure what the outcome of that situation would be.

This is has been rattling around in my head since my wife brought up the idea of moving in to help her about a week ago.  It’s a challenge here sometimes to make the arrangements so I have the freedom to dress.  The kid has to be gone to friends and I have to make sure everything that I need to get done that day gets done so I have the time to just get ready and then relax in the moment.  How will this work if my MIL needs something and I am midway through my makeup routine?  Sure I can take my makeup off and head up to help if the situation demands it but there is always that chance that I can miss some foundation or my mascara does not come completely off.

Of course, the other option is to come out and just tell my MIL that I am a crossdresser and address the elephant in the room before anything like the latter happens.  I have known my MIL for over 20 years now and couldn’t even begin to tell you how she would react to a situation like this.  Now even if I did tell her I am not under the assumption that she would be welcoming Cynthia with open arms,  no I think it would be the latter and she may be a little uneasy with the notion that her Son-in-law spends his spare time wearing makeup and heels.  And I don’t want any awkwardness,  my relationship with my MIL has been at times, strained to say the least over the years for various reasons.

So what’s the answer to this conundrum?  well, right now we just have to wait and see where she will be medically wise in the next little while and hopefully she will recover enough to be still able to live on her own.

Thanks for reading.


Life Updates On The New Normal.

the new normal

How are all my readers doing?  staying safe and healthy I hope.

Here were are in April of 2020 and things here have taken and slight turn for the worse. As well as social distancing my Mother-in-law has taken ill (Not COVID) and my wife and child have had to pack up and leave to be with her to help her around her house. I have mixed feelings about this both good and bad.

On the good side as I am still working and heading out every day there is always the chance that I could bring home COVID-19 and pass it onto my wife who already has a suppressed immune system and depending on how bad the state of the hospitals at the time would surely succumb to it. So the distance between us now makes me feel a little better as an added measure to make sure she stays safe.

And seeing as I have the house all to myself now I can dress whenever I want. I can now come home and indulge in a full evening of dressing or just pop home from work, shave and throw some jeans and a top on with a splash of lipstick and have a lazy night.

On the bad side, it gets really lonely in the apartment, normally there is always some type of noise whether it is the kid watching youtube videos/gaming or the wife listening to some of her Creepy Pastas, it’s never quiet around here.  You don’t know true silence until you have to endure it. But for the safety of myself and my family, I can and will do this.

So seeing as I do have the opportunity to dress now I have taken the time for the last 4 days to do so in some shape or form whether it be just some jeans, blouse and lipstick like I mentioned before or like Saturday where I went all out.  I had planned to start first thing in the morning but I got caught up doing some chores.  I had to make sure I could bring back in our recycling bins before getting dressed and I had to make at least one trip out to pick up some vital supplies for the elderly lady that lives above us.  She has issues getting out and about so I make it a point to ask if she needs anything before heading out.

The store was not crazy as I was expecting it to be,  people were queuing up outside and would only enter when someone else left. I made a point to pass the makeup aisle and glance at some things I really wanted but at this time I do not want to be browsing,  I just want to head in, get only what I need and back out again. Once back at home I needed to finish some cleaning and go get out recycling boxes that were now finally empty.  It was lunch by the time I had finished all the needed cleaning and I decided to have a bite to eat and then take a quick, short nap.  I woke up at around 2:30 and figured it was now time to start getting really ready.  I had a nice warm shower (It’s chilly here still) and cleaned up a bit,  shaved, toned and moisturized my face before getting half-dressed and sitting myself down in my hastily made kitchen makeup table. I decided it was time to try out the new Maybelline primer 20190602_083832_Richtone(HDR)I had picked up but never had a chance to use yet.  I was a little hesitant to try as I usually never have my makeup on for more than a few hours but seeing as I was starting to get dressed at 3ish I knew I would be wearing it until at least 9.  I decided to use it on my eyes as well seeing as I don’t own an actual eyeshadow primer,  I gotta say it’s a game-changer, turns out I have oily eyelids which is why Most of the time I find my eyeshadow moves all over the place and never stays put. But I kept checking in the mirror and by god, my eyeshadow looked the same all night.  When we are able to shop again I will for sure be picking up some eyeshadow primer from Maybelline.

Once I was sure I had used all the products that I had intended (I usually always forget something) I headed off the bedroom to slip into a dress I had purchased last fall but never had the chance to wear as of yet.  I guess you could call it a Little Black Dress with a velvet finish to it and a pattern on it. DSC07413Once done getting dressed I pulled out all my jewelry and proceeded to get into that and then headed to the living room to put on my nails and once that was done it was time to try and snap a few pictures.20190601_150015

Trying to get decent pictures in a small apartment can be hell and I can’t even find the tripod for my camera so I am stuck using an old cell phone either in the small bathroom mirror or close up shots in my makeup mirror,  not great options.  The rest of the night was spent relaxing on the couch either playing Borderlands 3 or watching Altered Carbon on Netflix.


So for the foreseeable future, this will be my new normal,  being able to dress whenever the urge strikes me,  or when I am not dead on my feet tired from work.  My only issue is what I have had to sacrifice to be here,  sure I can dress whenever I want but at the cost of human companionship,  this really is a double-edged sword.

I hope all of you are safe and sound and your families as well in these weird and trying time.

Be safe and thanks for reading.



The world is on Fire and other life updates.


So here we are almost at the end of March of 2020 and it seems as if the regular way of life we once knew is just a long-forgotten memory at this point.  We are now rushing out to stock up on toilet paper (for some unknown reason) and to strip grocery stores of every last edible piece of food,  but other than that,  how is your 2020 going?

Up until this point 2020 was not going all that bad for us here,  things were for the most part pretty quiet.  Work was going,  Wife and Kid were doing well and Winter was coming to an end so what more could we ask for.

You could almost feel the sense of dread getting closer every day as we watched the news,  more cases appearing and each time it’s a little closer to your doorstep.  At this point here in Ontario, all non-essential places have been closed and only services that are deemed “Needed” are still functioning.  We have been asked to keep social isolating and if you must go out stay at least 6′ away from other people.

In our house, it’s a little bit more dire situation because my wife is already immunocompromised,  so if I was to bring this home it for sure spell trouble for her.  This has even impacted my work as we now have to ask people if they have been out of the country or are currently suffering from symptoms of Covid 19 and if so we will decline to work at their house until they are feeling better.  It’s not just for my safety of myself but everyone else I would come into contact with.

I will admit,  I am stressed.  Everything right now just seems not real to a degree.  Streets and parking lots are empty,  store clerks are now wearing gloves and masks and today I even met a security guard posted at the door of our pharmacy,  it truly is a crazy time.  And what do I want to do when I get stressed out?  Well dress of course,  but I just can’t bring myself to do it.  Our Kid knows and is willing to hide out in their room to give me the time but I can’t do that to them,  it’s not fair at all.  So I do other things to try and help with the stress,  paint my nails,  work on my blog and keeping my legs shaved all seem to be helping a bit.

As for starting for other local Crossdressers never really went anywhere.  I had put out a few messages on some web groups that I knew some local CD’s frequented and didn’t get more than a couple of responses,  which to me seems weird as I know there are other CD’s in this town.  I had wanted to at least have a meeting set up for late summer or early fall of 2020 but I kinda have a feeling that we will still be in some sort social distancing situation by then so meetings would be out anyways.

So I hope all of you (My readers) are safe and healthy and or taking precautions to keep it that way.

Stay safe,  and thanks for reading.


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Moving Forward In 2020

moving forward

So a new year and a new decade are here, and I’m feeling more alone than ever.

And this is not a slight against my awesome wife who lets me dress whenever I can find the time,  but it’s just not the same as having friends that have the same interests as I do,  I am almost positive that my wife does not want to hear about my latest lipstick purchase and how well the formulation is supposed to be great.  So what’s a lonely Crossdresser supposed to do?

When I first went out to coffee with Shelia she had discussed a possible plan of having meetings for other local CD’s but at that point it was just a idea,  an idea I can’t stop thinking about as I am now wishing to get out and meet more people,  so where do we try to take the idea from here?

Safety Is Paramount:

After talking about the plan on starting a group to my wife,  her only concern was about the safety of myself and others that may want to attend,  how do we ensure the safety and anonymity of anyone that would like to head out to a meeting.  I have sent some emails out to other groups in larger cities to see how they handle the situations and we will see what they say.

A Safe Place To Meet:

The perfect place would be a quiet spot where we could come and go without drawing too much attention and I already think I have the perfect spot.  Here in the town there is a community house that can be rented, either just a room or the whole house.  I am thinking the whole house would work the best as it would give space to those that want to come and get dressed there instead of showing up dressed.


I am thinking that mostly,  meetings would just be a comfortable way for people to meet others like themselves and actually have time and the space to dress for awhile as in some instances it’s very hard if not impossible.  I would also open the group up to spouses as well as at times they also need a place to vent and get help with accepting the situation they may have now found themselves in.  Of course if does go without saying that the group would not only be open to Crossdressers but anyone who deviates from the gender norms when it comes to clothing.

Special Guests:

I would love to eventually be able to have guests come to the meetings,  the first few I can think of are makeup artists and possible people from local clothing / lingerie stores for proper fittings for some people and possible sales for them.  I already know of a couple of friendly stores in the area so I am sure I would be able to bring something together.

So I guess for now this is my little pet project for 2020.  If this does go any further than this post I will be sure to try and keep my blog updated with how it all seems to be going.

Thanks For Reading


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2019 In Review


2020 is here so I thought I would take a look back at what has come about in 2019 for myself and family.  Keep in mind this will be rather long and full of pictures of makeup and clothes because I had quite a few posts I just didn’t get around to finishing last year,  so I threw them all together into one large year-end type post.

Starting off 2019

I started off 2019 in a good way but that quickly came to an end.  It was only a couple of weeks in and I ended up breaking my leg and pretty severely at that.  I required 4 days in the hospital,  4 months of healing and 2 surgeries to repair the break.  I now have some really wicked scars on my lower leg and knee area and a nice chunk of metal as well.  My awesome wife was so great during all of this because for the first week or two I barely moved from her recliner that she so graciously let me used while I recuperated.  I can guarantee this woman loves me after having to put up with my broken ass for 4 months straight.

I am pretty sure light colored pantyhose or tights are out now as I will need a way to cover up the scars,  I am sure my dreams of becoming a leg model are now out the window.

Made It Out

I was able to connect with another Crossdresser living in the same city as me and we were able to head out for coffee together.  It was nice being able to talk to someone face to face who has had some of the same experiences as me in life.  They are a lot farther into their dressing than I am seeing as they have been out before dressed and at this point, I have not gone past my back yard but it was awesome hearing some of their stories and learning more about them.  We will for sure heading out again to meet when all the holiday dust settles.  You can read about our first meet up here.

What I bought this year

I tend not to spend a lot of money on clothes just for the simple fact that I don’t get to wear them all that much,  so when I do buy something I either rely on 50% off sales or thrift store finds.  I really only picked up 2 new pieces of clothes in 2019,  which is fine because the wife is complaining about how much space Cynthia’s clothes are taking up in the closet.


I kept it simple with a pair of nice used jeans from a thrift store that looks brand new,    And on a trip to Penningtons in the fall, the wife bought me a mesh blouse and I went back later on and bought a dress with some of my tip money.



The blouse is super versatile and can be dressed up or down but it’s mesh so it needs a tank top underneath it at least.  The dress feels like velvet and looks really good.  My only complaint is the low cut neckline,  I need to get something that comes up pretty high to be able to wear it properly as most of my bra’s show up underneath it.

This year I also started to buy a little bit more jewelry as well with some sets of clip-on earrings from the thrift store and some rings and bracelets from Penningtons.


The rings were in a set of five and I am sure they were size 11,  if I move up to the size 12 for the next set I think it will be better.  IMG_1000The bracelets were not such a great fit as I could not get them over my thumbs without dislocating them.  The bracelets also came in a set of 5 and luckily most were very thin so I was able to cut them and spread them apart to allow me to get them on,  the thicker bracelet was gifted to my wife.  I believe the ones I cut could get a dab of hot glue to make them a bit safer and stop them from snagging on my clothes.


If this is your first time reading my blog,  Hi I am Cynthia and I love Lipstick.  So ya know I bought more this year but again it was always on sale and only when it was 5.99 or below.  Plus sometimes when getting it from Shoppers Drug Mart I get 100 PC Optimum points for every dollar spent on Revlon Lipstick,  it’s a win/win really.

028 Cherry Blossom – Pearl


046 Bombshell Red – Creme


047 Dare To Be Nude – Matte


048 Audacious Mauve – Matte


049 Rise Up Rose – Matte


054 Femme Future Pink – Matte


055 Forward Magenta – Matte


057 Power Move – Matte


477 Black Cherry – Creme


525 Wine With Everything – Creme


654 Ravish Me Red – Creme


677 Siren – Creme


Revlon Lip Liners in Fuchsia, Red and Pink


Maybelline 379 Fuchsia For Me


388 Plum For Me


I know I already did a post about this but I want to brag about my Xmas gift a bit more so here are some better pics of my M∙A∙C lipstick that my kid got me.

M∙A∙C Cremesheen Lipstick in Brave Red


Me wearing my new M∙A∙C Brave Red.

As you can see there is quite a few of the Revlon Super Lustrous Matte Is Everything shades,  turns out this line is being discontinued and a new line coming out so all the old stock at Shoppers Drug Mart is being cleared,  I only picked out some colors I would normally never try and will see how they look on me.  Worst case scenario if they look terrible I can give them to the kid and they can use them for cosplaying.



When I shave my face I have to try and get really close and to be quite honest I have never really found a difference between expensive razors and the cheap ones.  To be able to get all the hairs I can I am constantly shaving in the same spot and it gets irritated which I can deal with but it’s the little ingrown hairs that really bother me.  Even though I always clean my face before shaving it’s still a problem.  IMG_1062I decided to try out a toner after shaving to see if that lessens the breakouts and so far it seems to have worked.  I picked up the Olay Cleanse Toner with Witch Hazel,  it has not stopped the breakouts totally but it was gone down considerably.

I was about halfway through my bottle of Olay Quench body lotion when I finally got around to shaving my legs again after everything had healed all up.  I only got 2 squirts out before the pump decided to die.  Figured I would just head out to the closest drug store and pick up a new one,  not so easy.  Turns out the only place in town that sells it is the large “W” store that is almost a 15 min drive from home.  When I finally did get the new one the bottle was almost twice the size and to be quite honest I don’t like the scent as much as I liked the last one although the formulation seems to work just a well.



I only picked up a few things in 2019 that are nail related as I have a fairly decent sized collection of polishes and nails still.  One disappointment was that I was not able to get the Nina Ultra Pro white base coat the last time I went looking for it at Sally Beauty and the next best one I could find by Finger Paints did not really meet my expectations.  I mean it worked okay but was not as a vibrant white as the other product I used previously which meant (At least on me) the colors I put on top seemed kinda muted.


From left to right are Nina Ultra Pro in Hot, Vixen and, Wet Glaze then Finger Paints in A Hue Too Many and Folk He-Art.  The shades in Finger Paints are great but the brush size is a little too small for my liking,  although it’s great for when I do my wife’s nails.

So that’s pretty much everything I did and or bought in 2019.  Here is hoping that all of my readers had a safe and happy holidays and that the New Year brings you health and happiness.

Thanks For Reading.



An Unexpected Sunday Night


So I normally have to plan my dressing time well in advance and I try and make it for Saturday nights,  Why?  Well because Friday nights I am always too tired after work and I can usually take a nap Saturday afternoon so I am bright-eyed and bushy-tailed to be able to apply my makeup without my eyelids feeling too heavy.

The kid was home this Saturday night which ruled that out but they were invited out Sunday afternoon.  Now normally I would not dare dress on a Sunday night for the fear that I may miss some mascara or a hint of foundation,  but this Sunday night also brought with it an ice storm as well and it was supposed to go all night which meant I would not be heading to work on Monday morning.

We dropped the Kid off my 2:30 and drove back home just making it there before the freezing rain started.  I rushed off to have a quick shower and shave so my face would be ready for makeup later on.  It was a hell of a time trying to get all the little hairs but I did my best.  I finished up with some toner after shaving and then topped that off with my moisturizer, Face ready!

I headed off to the bedroom where I had already laid some clothes out and proceeded to get into one of my favorite sets of under pieces and breast form before slipping on my pantyhose and a really nice pair of jeans I had picked up in the summer.  For a top, I went with the mesh top that my wife bought me this fall and underneath that I wore a black tank top that had come with a Lace Blouse I had bought a while back.  It was also a great night to break out the clip-on earrings that I had been picking up at the local thrift stores recently,  they are really basic but I think they look really good.  I then headed out to the living room to start applying my nails.

Instead of using my usual method of 2 sided tape I used some of the nail stickers I picked up when Sally Beauty had them on clearance.  If you prep your nails properly these little stickers will hold onto a set of fake nails like you would not believe,  I have even washed dishes with these things. img_1004.jpg Unfortunately, they are not carried by Sally Beauty anymore so I am trying to save them when I can.  At this time it was only 4:30 PM and we still had lots of time.  I went into the kitchen and grabbed something to eat before we headed to take the dog out.  We don’t live in a very busy apartment and unless you really looked over my jeans well you would never be able to tell they are women’s jeans so I can get away with just removing my forms and throwing on my coat and you cannot even tell I am dressed in,  and with the addition of wearing my big coat I can jam my hands in the pockets and no can even tell.

So we spent the rest of the afternoon with the Wife playing the Sims 4 and me surfing the web and trying to work on other blog posts.  When 7:30 rolled around it was time to take the dog for his final trip out for the night before the wife started her bedtime routine.  We sat up a little longer watching Brooklyn 99 before she said “Good Night” and I grabbed all my makeup and headed off to the bathroom.  I was a little nervous as last time I tried to do a whole face my foundation looked really off but I think it was due to the fact that we were using the fluorescent bulbs in there which I swapped out to LED style and this time it looked better but I still think I need a better color for winter.  It never fails when I work with makeup that I have this great look in my head and I always miss something in the process.  My eyeshadow job looked decent with a shimmery purple and silver that blended out just great and my mediocre liquid eyeliner job,  I even went as far as to curl my lashes and then promptly forgot to add mascara.  But on the upside this time I was actually pretty good at adding some blush and even remembered to use my translucent powder to finish everything off.

My main goal really was to be able to use the Xmas gift I had received from my kid,  My very first M∙A∙C lipstick.

M∙A∙C Cremesheen Lipstick in Brave Red

I was super careful outlining my lips in the only red liner that I have before attempting the first coat with my brush.  Usually, it’s at this point where I screw up,  go way outside my lip line then ruin the rest of my face trying to repair that but this night I can say my attention to detail payed off.  After getting my lines in the right area and filling in mostly with the brush I was able to top it all off with a couple coats straight from the bullet and VOILA it didn’t look half bad.  On me the finish was fairly gloss which I really liked and it seemed to hold on pretty well although I didn’t drink or eat anything.  I can now see why people talk so highly about M∙A∙C products.


With my face done and the wife asleep I was able to creep back into the room and grab my wig,  it really needed some attention as our one cat likes to get up on my shelf when we are sleeping and knock it off and then the dog sleeps on it,  so it really looked like a rats nest.  With my wig brush, I was able to get it to look at least presentable from the front.  I tried snapping a few photos in the bathroom mirror before I settled into some more blogging and playing a few games.  I only made one outfit change into a dress that I had picked up this fall but had not been able to wear yet.  20190722_003739


My eyelids started to get heavy around 11:30 (9 is usually late for me) and decided to head off and clean up.  I started with taking off the nails first which is the hardest task because like I said earlier,  these tip stickers hold.  You have to push down on the front so the back lifts up a bit then start peeling them off.  I will admit there is a bit of pain in the process but they all came off relatively easy.  I proceeded to get undressed and headed into the bathroom with my trusty Olay Daily Facial clothes and cleaned my face of almost all my makeup,  there was one troublesome spot where I had put eyeshadow on my bottom lid and it would just not come off.



















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A Very Cynthia Xmas


I hope all my readers had a good Holliday season and were able to spend time with loved ones.

So Xmas eve rolled around again and this year and my kid wanted me to open a present early which never usually happens around here.  I was a little hesitant at first as I really wanted to wait for Xmas day but I was pushed very hard to open it.

I was handed a very small wrapped present that looked like it had about 8 miles of tape going around it.  I tried shaking it and it made very little noise and I had no idea what I was getting.  As I preceded to start unwrapping the present I was greeted with a small box with a splash of red color and as I unwrapped further there it was,  the logo I have always wanted to have,  M·A·C.

I Crushed the box with the wrapping paper in my excitement.



My awesome kid had apparently heard me talking about going to the M·A·C store and asked my wife what I would really want from there.  On the last Friday before Xmas, my wife and kid made the trek to the local mall and headed to the MAC store to take a look around.  My equally awesome wife helped in the process of perusing the lipstick counter till they found a color they both thought I would like,  and do I ever.  I now have a Brave Red Cremesheen lipstick from MAC and I could not be happier.  According to the M·A·C website, it is a “Bright Yellow Red”  and the full description is,

M·A·C Lipstick – the iconic product that made M·A·C famous. This creamy, balmy formula features a comforting feel, medium buildable coverage and a semi-glossy finish.

One of the reasons that the Kid wanted me to open it Xmas Eve was that they were worried it might end up in some of the phots that we post to other places like Facebook so it was better to do it the night before.  They also just wanted to make sure that I knew that they accepted me,  which in itself is a whole other level of awesome.


I really cannot wait to try this out and let you all know how I feel about it.

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Cynthia’s Christmas Wish List 2019.

Christmas 2019

Only 20 plus days till Christmas morning again and here in the house, we are almost ready.  We have picked up all the major presents for the Kid and have decided not to get each other anything because the one main gift we did get will be more like a family gift anyways.  I decided to throw together a little wish list of stuff that I came across this year that I thought would make great Christmas presents for me.

MAC Viva Glam 25 Lipstick

I do so love lipstick but I really don’t like spending a ton of money on it,  I mostly opt for drugstore brands and usually when on sale for 5 dollars or less.  But to me there is no more Iconic brand of makeup then MAC,  Why? Because I can still remember when they made Ru Paul the spokesperson for the brand and at that point, it was the first time I had ever seen anyone in drag where it was not the punchline of a joke.  But here we are years later and MAC has re-released the Viva Glam lipstick in the original color with special packaging and it looks so good.  Plus all the proceeds from the Viva Glam line are donated.

Every cent of the selling price of VIVA GLAM Lipstick is donated to organizations that support the health and rights of people of All Ages, All Races and All Genders.

This would be a great present


MAC Viva Glam 25


Makeup Mirror

What better way to enjoy that new lipstick than actually being able to see when I put it on.  I am starting to feel the effects of aging,  especially with my eyes.  Things that I used to be able to read so easy before like the serial number and passwords for routers,  I am now having to reach into my clipboard and pull out my cheaters.  I already own a somewhat decent makeup mirror but the magnification is not great and it uses an old-style incandescent lamp and I would love to move up to an LED-style one.  Found the one below at Bed Bath & Beyond.

makeup mirror

An elegant update for your bathroom or dressing area, the freestanding LED Vanity Mirror features a beautiful chrome finish that enhances any decor. Perfect for putting on your makeup, it is dual sized and offers 5X magnification and true image.

Put on your makeup with style and precision with the LED Vanity Mirror

  • Features LED lighting
  • 5x magnification
  • Freestanding design
  • Chrome finish blends with any decor
  • Metal/glass construction

From Bed Bath & Beyond

New Clothes

I always like to try and pick out a new fancier outfit at Christmas time that I would wear if I was ever to go out.  I always take a look at the Penningtons website because they seem to have the best fitting clothes for me and if I am lucky they will still have it when they have their big year end sale.

I picked out a couple this year,  the first is a Jersey Dress with metallic fabric.

Plus size jersey dress made with shiny metallic lurex details in a relaxed fit that provides comfort without taking away any elegance. Perfect evening dress to pair with heels.


  • 3/4 sleeves
  • V-neck
  • Knot detail in front
  • 45-in length

and the second is a sleeveless lace dress

It’s the little black dress reinvented with refinement. This stunning plus size lace dress is designed in a flattering fit and flare silhouette. Designed in a silky crepe with an accordion pleated skirt and a lace top with no lining at the upper neckline for a sheer delicate accent.


  • Sleeveless
  • Crew-neck
  • Concealed back zipper closure
  • V-cutout at back with fabric-covered button-closure
  • 48-in length

I am not a fan of sleeveless but I can’t help but love the look of this dress.  I am sure it could be paired with a shawl of some sort to cover my arms if needed.

Both Dresses from Penningtons

And what goes better with a new dress than some new Lingerie to wear underneath it all.  For lingerie, I always check out Addition Elle because they carry the Ashley Graham line of plus sizes but this year it was the store collection from Déesse that caught my eye.  Although this was from last season so it’s already sold out but I still do love the lace and the colours.  I have a few other sets in the Femme Couture line and they are some of my favorite’s

Déesse Femme Couture Lace Bra and High-Cut Cross Dye Lace Panty

From Addition Elle

So they were just a few of the nice things I have come across whilst surfing the internet that if I could,  would add to my Christmas list.

What have you got on yours?

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