The world is on Fire and other life updates.


So here we are almost at the end of March of 2020 and it seems as if the regular way of life we once knew is just a long-forgotten memory at this point.  We are now rushing out to stock up on toilet paper (for some unknown reason) and to strip grocery stores of every last edible piece of food,  but other than that,  how is your 2020 going?

Up until this point 2020 was not going all that bad for us here,  things were for the most part pretty quiet.  Work was going,  Wife and Kid were doing well and Winter was coming to an end so what more could we ask for.

You could almost feel the sense of dread getting closer every day as we watched the news,  more cases appearing and each time it’s a little closer to your doorstep.  At this point here in Ontario, all non-essential places have been closed and only services that are deemed “Needed” are still functioning.  We have been asked to keep social isolating and if you must go out stay at least 6′ away from other people.

In our house, it’s a little bit more dire situation because my wife is already immunocompromised,  so if I was to bring this home it for sure spell trouble for her.  This has even impacted my work as we now have to ask people if they have been out of the country or are currently suffering from symptoms of Covid 19 and if so we will decline to work at their house until they are feeling better.  It’s not just for my safety of myself but everyone else I would come into contact with.

I will admit,  I am stressed.  Everything right now just seems not real to a degree.  Streets and parking lots are empty,  store clerks are now wearing gloves and masks and today I even met a security guard posted at the door of our pharmacy,  it truly is a crazy time.  And what do I want to do when I get stressed out?  Well dress of course,  but I just can’t bring myself to do it.  Our Kid knows and is willing to hide out in their room to give me the time but I can’t do that to them,  it’s not fair at all.  So I do other things to try and help with the stress,  paint my nails,  work on my blog and keeping my legs shaved all seem to be helping a bit.

As for starting for other local Crossdressers never really went anywhere.  I had put out a few messages on some web groups that I knew some local CD’s frequented and didn’t get more than a couple of responses,  which to me seems weird as I know there are other CD’s in this town.  I had wanted to at least have a meeting set up for late summer or early fall of 2020 but I kinda have a feeling that we will still be in some sort social distancing situation by then so meetings would be out anyways.

So I hope all of you (My readers) are safe and healthy and or taking precautions to keep it that way.

Stay safe,  and thanks for reading.


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Moving Forward In 2020

moving forward

So a new year and a new decade are here, and I’m feeling more alone than ever.

And this is not a slight against my awesome wife who lets me dress whenever I can find the time,  but it’s just not the same as having friends that have the same interests as I do,  I am almost positive that my wife does not want to hear about my latest lipstick purchase and how well the formulation is supposed to be great.  So what’s a lonely Crossdresser supposed to do?

When I first went out to coffee with Shelia she had discussed a possible plan of having meetings for other local CD’s but at that point it was just a idea,  an idea I can’t stop thinking about as I am now wishing to get out and meet more people,  so where do we try to take the idea from here?

Safety Is Paramount:

After talking about the plan on starting a group to my wife,  her only concern was about the safety of myself and others that may want to attend,  how do we ensure the safety and anonymity of anyone that would like to head out to a meeting.  I have sent some emails out to other groups in larger cities to see how they handle the situations and we will see what they say.

A Safe Place To Meet:

The perfect place would be a quiet spot where we could come and go without drawing too much attention and I already think I have the perfect spot.  Here in the town there is a community house that can be rented, either just a room or the whole house.  I am thinking the whole house would work the best as it would give space to those that want to come and get dressed there instead of showing up dressed.


I am thinking that mostly,  meetings would just be a comfortable way for people to meet others like themselves and actually have time and the space to dress for awhile as in some instances it’s very hard if not impossible.  I would also open the group up to spouses as well as at times they also need a place to vent and get help with accepting the situation they may have now found themselves in.  Of course if does go without saying that the group would not only be open to Crossdressers but anyone who deviates from the gender norms when it comes to clothing.

Special Guests:

I would love to eventually be able to have guests come to the meetings,  the first few I can think of are makeup artists and possible people from local clothing / lingerie stores for proper fittings for some people and possible sales for them.  I already know of a couple of friendly stores in the area so I am sure I would be able to bring something together.

So I guess for now this is my little pet project for 2020.  If this does go any further than this post I will be sure to try and keep my blog updated with how it all seems to be going.

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2019 In Review


2020 is here so I thought I would take a look back at what has come about in 2019 for myself and family.  Keep in mind this will be rather long and full of pictures of makeup and clothes because I had quite a few posts I just didn’t get around to finishing last year,  so I threw them all together into one large year-end type post.

Starting off 2019

I started off 2019 in a good way but that quickly came to an end.  It was only a couple of weeks in and I ended up breaking my leg and pretty severely at that.  I required 4 days in the hospital,  4 months of healing and 2 surgeries to repair the break.  I now have some really wicked scars on my lower leg and knee area and a nice chunk of metal as well.  My awesome wife was so great during all of this because for the first week or two I barely moved from her recliner that she so graciously let me used while I recuperated.  I can guarantee this woman loves me after having to put up with my broken ass for 4 months straight.

I am pretty sure light colored pantyhose or tights are out now as I will need a way to cover up the scars,  I am sure my dreams of becoming a leg model are now out the window.

Made It Out

I was able to connect with another Crossdresser living in the same city as me and we were able to head out for coffee together.  It was nice being able to talk to someone face to face who has had some of the same experiences as me in life.  They are a lot farther into their dressing than I am seeing as they have been out before dressed and at this point, I have not gone past my back yard but it was awesome hearing some of their stories and learning more about them.  We will for sure heading out again to meet when all the holiday dust settles.  You can read about our first meet up here.

What I bought this year

I tend not to spend a lot of money on clothes just for the simple fact that I don’t get to wear them all that much,  so when I do buy something I either rely on 50% off sales or thrift store finds.  I really only picked up 2 new pieces of clothes in 2019,  which is fine because the wife is complaining about how much space Cynthia’s clothes are taking up in the closet.


I kept it simple with a pair of nice used jeans from a thrift store that looks brand new,    And on a trip to Penningtons in the fall, the wife bought me a mesh blouse and I went back later on and bought a dress with some of my tip money.



The blouse is super versatile and can be dressed up or down but it’s mesh so it needs a tank top underneath it at least.  The dress feels like velvet and looks really good.  My only complaint is the low cut neckline,  I need to get something that comes up pretty high to be able to wear it properly as most of my bra’s show up underneath it.

This year I also started to buy a little bit more jewelry as well with some sets of clip-on earrings from the thrift store and some rings and bracelets from Penningtons.


The rings were in a set of five and I am sure they were size 11,  if I move up to the size 12 for the next set I think it will be better.  IMG_1000The bracelets were not such a great fit as I could not get them over my thumbs without dislocating them.  The bracelets also came in a set of 5 and luckily most were very thin so I was able to cut them and spread them apart to allow me to get them on,  the thicker bracelet was gifted to my wife.  I believe the ones I cut could get a dab of hot glue to make them a bit safer and stop them from snagging on my clothes.


If this is your first time reading my blog,  Hi I am Cynthia and I love Lipstick.  So ya know I bought more this year but again it was always on sale and only when it was 5.99 or below.  Plus sometimes when getting it from Shoppers Drug Mart I get 100 PC Optimum points for every dollar spent on Revlon Lipstick,  it’s a win/win really.

028 Cherry Blossom – Pearl


046 Bombshell Red – Creme


047 Dare To Be Nude – Matte


048 Audacious Mauve – Matte


049 Rise Up Rose – Matte


054 Femme Future Pink – Matte


055 Forward Magenta – Matte


057 Power Move – Matte


477 Black Cherry – Creme


525 Wine With Everything – Creme


654 Ravish Me Red – Creme


677 Siren – Creme


Revlon Lip Liners in Fuchsia, Red and Pink


Maybelline 379 Fuchsia For Me


388 Plum For Me


I know I already did a post about this but I want to brag about my Xmas gift a bit more so here are some better pics of my M∙A∙C lipstick that my kid got me.

M∙A∙C Cremesheen Lipstick in Brave Red


Me wearing my new M∙A∙C Brave Red.

As you can see there is quite a few of the Revlon Super Lustrous Matte Is Everything shades,  turns out this line is being discontinued and a new line coming out so all the old stock at Shoppers Drug Mart is being cleared,  I only picked out some colors I would normally never try and will see how they look on me.  Worst case scenario if they look terrible I can give them to the kid and they can use them for cosplaying.



When I shave my face I have to try and get really close and to be quite honest I have never really found a difference between expensive razors and the cheap ones.  To be able to get all the hairs I can I am constantly shaving in the same spot and it gets irritated which I can deal with but it’s the little ingrown hairs that really bother me.  Even though I always clean my face before shaving it’s still a problem.  IMG_1062I decided to try out a toner after shaving to see if that lessens the breakouts and so far it seems to have worked.  I picked up the Olay Cleanse Toner with Witch Hazel,  it has not stopped the breakouts totally but it was gone down considerably.

I was about halfway through my bottle of Olay Quench body lotion when I finally got around to shaving my legs again after everything had healed all up.  I only got 2 squirts out before the pump decided to die.  Figured I would just head out to the closest drug store and pick up a new one,  not so easy.  Turns out the only place in town that sells it is the large “W” store that is almost a 15 min drive from home.  When I finally did get the new one the bottle was almost twice the size and to be quite honest I don’t like the scent as much as I liked the last one although the formulation seems to work just a well.



I only picked up a few things in 2019 that are nail related as I have a fairly decent sized collection of polishes and nails still.  One disappointment was that I was not able to get the Nina Ultra Pro white base coat the last time I went looking for it at Sally Beauty and the next best one I could find by Finger Paints did not really meet my expectations.  I mean it worked okay but was not as a vibrant white as the other product I used previously which meant (At least on me) the colors I put on top seemed kinda muted.


From left to right are Nina Ultra Pro in Hot, Vixen and, Wet Glaze then Finger Paints in A Hue Too Many and Folk He-Art.  The shades in Finger Paints are great but the brush size is a little too small for my liking,  although it’s great for when I do my wife’s nails.

So that’s pretty much everything I did and or bought in 2019.  Here is hoping that all of my readers had a safe and happy holidays and that the New Year brings you health and happiness.

Thanks For Reading.



An Unexpected Sunday Night


So I normally have to plan my dressing time well in advance and I try and make it for Saturday nights,  Why?  Well because Friday nights I am always too tired after work and I can usually take a nap Saturday afternoon so I am bright-eyed and bushy-tailed to be able to apply my makeup without my eyelids feeling too heavy.

The kid was home this Saturday night which ruled that out but they were invited out Sunday afternoon.  Now normally I would not dare dress on a Sunday night for the fear that I may miss some mascara or a hint of foundation,  but this Sunday night also brought with it an ice storm as well and it was supposed to go all night which meant I would not be heading to work on Monday morning.

We dropped the Kid off my 2:30 and drove back home just making it there before the freezing rain started.  I rushed off to have a quick shower and shave so my face would be ready for makeup later on.  It was a hell of a time trying to get all the little hairs but I did my best.  I finished up with some toner after shaving and then topped that off with my moisturizer, Face ready!

I headed off to the bedroom where I had already laid some clothes out and proceeded to get into one of my favorite sets of under pieces and breast form before slipping on my pantyhose and a really nice pair of jeans I had picked up in the summer.  For a top, I went with the mesh top that my wife bought me this fall and underneath that I wore a black tank top that had come with a Lace Blouse I had bought a while back.  It was also a great night to break out the clip-on earrings that I had been picking up at the local thrift stores recently,  they are really basic but I think they look really good.  I then headed out to the living room to start applying my nails.

Instead of using my usual method of 2 sided tape I used some of the nail stickers I picked up when Sally Beauty had them on clearance.  If you prep your nails properly these little stickers will hold onto a set of fake nails like you would not believe,  I have even washed dishes with these things. img_1004.jpg Unfortunately, they are not carried by Sally Beauty anymore so I am trying to save them when I can.  At this time it was only 4:30 PM and we still had lots of time.  I went into the kitchen and grabbed something to eat before we headed to take the dog out.  We don’t live in a very busy apartment and unless you really looked over my jeans well you would never be able to tell they are women’s jeans so I can get away with just removing my forms and throwing on my coat and you cannot even tell I am dressed in,  and with the addition of wearing my big coat I can jam my hands in the pockets and no can even tell.

So we spent the rest of the afternoon with the Wife playing the Sims 4 and me surfing the web and trying to work on other blog posts.  When 7:30 rolled around it was time to take the dog for his final trip out for the night before the wife started her bedtime routine.  We sat up a little longer watching Brooklyn 99 before she said “Good Night” and I grabbed all my makeup and headed off to the bathroom.  I was a little nervous as last time I tried to do a whole face my foundation looked really off but I think it was due to the fact that we were using the fluorescent bulbs in there which I swapped out to LED style and this time it looked better but I still think I need a better color for winter.  It never fails when I work with makeup that I have this great look in my head and I always miss something in the process.  My eyeshadow job looked decent with a shimmery purple and silver that blended out just great and my mediocre liquid eyeliner job,  I even went as far as to curl my lashes and then promptly forgot to add mascara.  But on the upside this time I was actually pretty good at adding some blush and even remembered to use my translucent powder to finish everything off.

My main goal really was to be able to use the Xmas gift I had received from my kid,  My very first M∙A∙C lipstick.

M∙A∙C Cremesheen Lipstick in Brave Red

I was super careful outlining my lips in the only red liner that I have before attempting the first coat with my brush.  Usually, it’s at this point where I screw up,  go way outside my lip line then ruin the rest of my face trying to repair that but this night I can say my attention to detail payed off.  After getting my lines in the right area and filling in mostly with the brush I was able to top it all off with a couple coats straight from the bullet and VOILA it didn’t look half bad.  On me the finish was fairly gloss which I really liked and it seemed to hold on pretty well although I didn’t drink or eat anything.  I can now see why people talk so highly about M∙A∙C products.


With my face done and the wife asleep I was able to creep back into the room and grab my wig,  it really needed some attention as our one cat likes to get up on my shelf when we are sleeping and knock it off and then the dog sleeps on it,  so it really looked like a rats nest.  With my wig brush, I was able to get it to look at least presentable from the front.  I tried snapping a few photos in the bathroom mirror before I settled into some more blogging and playing a few games.  I only made one outfit change into a dress that I had picked up this fall but had not been able to wear yet.  20190722_003739


My eyelids started to get heavy around 11:30 (9 is usually late for me) and decided to head off and clean up.  I started with taking off the nails first which is the hardest task because like I said earlier,  these tip stickers hold.  You have to push down on the front so the back lifts up a bit then start peeling them off.  I will admit there is a bit of pain in the process but they all came off relatively easy.  I proceeded to get undressed and headed into the bathroom with my trusty Olay Daily Facial clothes and cleaned my face of almost all my makeup,  there was one troublesome spot where I had put eyeshadow on my bottom lid and it would just not come off.



















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A Very Cynthia Xmas


I hope all my readers had a good Holliday season and were able to spend time with loved ones.

So Xmas eve rolled around again and this year and my kid wanted me to open a present early which never usually happens around here.  I was a little hesitant at first as I really wanted to wait for Xmas day but I was pushed very hard to open it.

I was handed a very small wrapped present that looked like it had about 8 miles of tape going around it.  I tried shaking it and it made very little noise and I had no idea what I was getting.  As I preceded to start unwrapping the present I was greeted with a small box with a splash of red color and as I unwrapped further there it was,  the logo I have always wanted to have,  M·A·C.

I Crushed the box with the wrapping paper in my excitement.



My awesome kid had apparently heard me talking about going to the M·A·C store and asked my wife what I would really want from there.  On the last Friday before Xmas, my wife and kid made the trek to the local mall and headed to the MAC store to take a look around.  My equally awesome wife helped in the process of perusing the lipstick counter till they found a color they both thought I would like,  and do I ever.  I now have a Brave Red Cremesheen lipstick from MAC and I could not be happier.  According to the M·A·C website, it is a “Bright Yellow Red”  and the full description is,

M·A·C Lipstick – the iconic product that made M·A·C famous. This creamy, balmy formula features a comforting feel, medium buildable coverage and a semi-glossy finish.

One of the reasons that the Kid wanted me to open it Xmas Eve was that they were worried it might end up in some of the phots that we post to other places like Facebook so it was better to do it the night before.  They also just wanted to make sure that I knew that they accepted me,  which in itself is a whole other level of awesome.


I really cannot wait to try this out and let you all know how I feel about it.

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Cynthia’s Christmas Wish List 2019.

Christmas 2019

Only 20 plus days till Christmas morning again and here in the house, we are almost ready.  We have picked up all the major presents for the Kid and have decided not to get each other anything because the one main gift we did get will be more like a family gift anyways.  I decided to throw together a little wish list of stuff that I came across this year that I thought would make great Christmas presents for me.

MAC Viva Glam 25 Lipstick

I do so love lipstick but I really don’t like spending a ton of money on it,  I mostly opt for drugstore brands and usually when on sale for 5 dollars or less.  But to me there is no more Iconic brand of makeup then MAC,  Why? Because I can still remember when they made Ru Paul the spokesperson for the brand and at that point, it was the first time I had ever seen anyone in drag where it was not the punchline of a joke.  But here we are years later and MAC has re-released the Viva Glam lipstick in the original color with special packaging and it looks so good.  Plus all the proceeds from the Viva Glam line are donated.

Every cent of the selling price of VIVA GLAM Lipstick is donated to organizations that support the health and rights of people of All Ages, All Races and All Genders.

This would be a great present


MAC Viva Glam 25


Makeup Mirror

What better way to enjoy that new lipstick than actually being able to see when I put it on.  I am starting to feel the effects of aging,  especially with my eyes.  Things that I used to be able to read so easy before like the serial number and passwords for routers,  I am now having to reach into my clipboard and pull out my cheaters.  I already own a somewhat decent makeup mirror but the magnification is not great and it uses an old-style incandescent lamp and I would love to move up to an LED-style one.  Found the one below at Bed Bath & Beyond.

makeup mirror

An elegant update for your bathroom or dressing area, the freestanding LED Vanity Mirror features a beautiful chrome finish that enhances any decor. Perfect for putting on your makeup, it is dual sized and offers 5X magnification and true image.

Put on your makeup with style and precision with the LED Vanity Mirror

  • Features LED lighting
  • 5x magnification
  • Freestanding design
  • Chrome finish blends with any decor
  • Metal/glass construction

From Bed Bath & Beyond

New Clothes

I always like to try and pick out a new fancier outfit at Christmas time that I would wear if I was ever to go out.  I always take a look at the Penningtons website because they seem to have the best fitting clothes for me and if I am lucky they will still have it when they have their big year end sale.

I picked out a couple this year,  the first is a Jersey Dress with metallic fabric.

Plus size jersey dress made with shiny metallic lurex details in a relaxed fit that provides comfort without taking away any elegance. Perfect evening dress to pair with heels.


  • 3/4 sleeves
  • V-neck
  • Knot detail in front
  • 45-in length

and the second is a sleeveless lace dress

It’s the little black dress reinvented with refinement. This stunning plus size lace dress is designed in a flattering fit and flare silhouette. Designed in a silky crepe with an accordion pleated skirt and a lace top with no lining at the upper neckline for a sheer delicate accent.


  • Sleeveless
  • Crew-neck
  • Concealed back zipper closure
  • V-cutout at back with fabric-covered button-closure
  • 48-in length

I am not a fan of sleeveless but I can’t help but love the look of this dress.  I am sure it could be paired with a shawl of some sort to cover my arms if needed.

Both Dresses from Penningtons

And what goes better with a new dress than some new Lingerie to wear underneath it all.  For lingerie, I always check out Addition Elle because they carry the Ashley Graham line of plus sizes but this year it was the store collection from Déesse that caught my eye.  Although this was from last season so it’s already sold out but I still do love the lace and the colours.  I have a few other sets in the Femme Couture line and they are some of my favorite’s

Déesse Femme Couture Lace Bra and High-Cut Cross Dye Lace Panty

From Addition Elle

So they were just a few of the nice things I have come across whilst surfing the internet that if I could,  would add to my Christmas list.

What have you got on yours?

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Making The Most Of A Saturday Night


Saturday afternoon the wife and I had to go out and get some groceries because Sunday was supposed to be pretty crappy.  After returning from groceries our kid told us that they were invited over to a friend’s house for the night.  At this point, it’s already after 3 and I like to be ready for makeup and clothes by at least 4 but this would not be the case and since I was interrupted the last time I tried to dress I was not going to pass up this golden opportunity.

It was around 3:30 when we headed out to take the kid off to their friends and decided to take a trip to the second-hand store as well before heading back home.  There was not much to look at so we headed home so I could start our dinner and continue on with the night.  Supper was finished around 6 and headed off to have a shower and was half tempted to shave my legs but I thought I could get away with at least one more time before it’s really needed.  After my shower, I pondered what to wear and had me heart set on a new velvet dress I picked up but seeing as we still would have to trek outside to take the dog out later I decided to go casual with a black tank under a new mesh top DSC07414my wife had picked out for me and a nice pair of jeans.  We sat in bed for a bit and watched some youtube science videos before the dog had to be taken out one last time and I thought I could get away without taking my forms out but they really stood out (Pun Intended) underneath my coat so they came out before heading out of doors.  It was time for a few more youtube videos before the wife started to fall asleep so I grabbed my makeup kit and headed for the bathroom.

I am not sure if it was the fact that I am using older style CCFL bulbs in the bathroom but I felt my foundation looked terrible but I kept on going.  I had a hell of a time trying to keep my one eyelid from jumping all over the place which made it insanely difficult to apply my eyeshadow properly but I persevered and it turned out somewhat okay.  I used my Covergirl Smoky palette using the second from the left for all over the lid and then the third from the left to go over the outer corners of my eye,  the photo is not really the best but it’s a shimmery purple color. DSC05477  I grabbed my Maybelline The Falsies mascara IMG_20180909_120521and did my best,  it’s a blue color and I actually pulled it off without getting it all over my face.  Now came the biggest decision of all to finish off my makeup,  the Lipstick.  Now I don’t want to say that I have a lot of lipsticks…..but……I…..Have….A…..TON.

I scanned through all the ones I have and finally decided on one I have only tried on once,  Maybelline Color Sensational Ruby For Me.  DSC06921These lipsticks were supposedly tested on multiple skin types and are supposed to work for everyone.  The color is a satin red lipstick and I have to say I am partial to it.  So now that my makeup was all done I headed off to the living room to just sit and relax with the internet and a little bit of Minecraft on my trusty old Xbox 360.  The plan was to stay up till about midnight but I barely made it to 10.  Somewhere around 9:30, I could feel my eyelids getting really heavy and decided it was time to clean up and head off to bed.  I pulled out my trusty Olay daily facial wipes and proceeded to take off all my makeup,  even the mascara.  I then finished cleaning up the rest of my mess and then headed off to bed.

It may not seem like the most exciting night of all time but when my dressing is sporadic at best it’s nice to finally be able to pull it off even if only for a little bit.

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