Cynthia’s Christmas Wish List 2019.

Christmas 2019

Only 20 plus days till Christmas morning again and here in the house, we are almost ready.  We have picked up all the major presents for the Kid and have decided not to get each other anything because the one main gift we did get will be more like a family gift anyways.  I decided to throw together a little wish list of stuff that I came across this year that I thought would make great Christmas presents for me.

MAC Viva Glam 25 Lipstick

I do so love lipstick but I really don’t like spending a ton of money on it,  I mostly opt for drugstore brands and usually when on sale for 5 dollars or less.  But to me there is no more Iconic brand of makeup then MAC,  Why? Because I can still remember when they made Ru Paul the spokesperson for the brand and at that point, it was the first time I had ever seen anyone in drag where it was not the punchline of a joke.  But here we are years later and MAC has re-released the Viva Glam lipstick in the original color with special packaging and it looks so good.  Plus all the proceeds from the Viva Glam line are donated.

Every cent of the selling price of VIVA GLAM Lipstick is donated to organizations that support the health and rights of people of All Ages, All Races and All Genders.

This would be a great present


MAC Viva Glam 25


Makeup Mirror

What better way to enjoy that new lipstick than actually being able to see when I put it on.  I am starting to feel the effects of aging,  especially with my eyes.  Things that I used to be able to read so easy before like the serial number and passwords for routers,  I am now having to reach into my clipboard and pull out my cheaters.  I already own a somewhat decent makeup mirror but the magnification is not great and it uses an old-style incandescent lamp and I would love to move up to an LED-style one.  Found the one below at Bed Bath & Beyond.

makeup mirror

An elegant update for your bathroom or dressing area, the freestanding LED Vanity Mirror features a beautiful chrome finish that enhances any decor. Perfect for putting on your makeup, it is dual sized and offers 5X magnification and true image.

Put on your makeup with style and precision with the LED Vanity Mirror

  • Features LED lighting
  • 5x magnification
  • Freestanding design
  • Chrome finish blends with any decor
  • Metal/glass construction

From Bed Bath & Beyond

New Clothes

I always like to try and pick out a new fancier outfit at Christmas time that I would wear if I was ever to go out.  I always take a look at the Penningtons website because they seem to have the best fitting clothes for me and if I am lucky they will still have it when they have their big year end sale.

I picked out a couple this year,  the first is a Jersey Dress with metallic fabric.

Plus size jersey dress made with shiny metallic lurex details in a relaxed fit that provides comfort without taking away any elegance. Perfect evening dress to pair with heels.


  • 3/4 sleeves
  • V-neck
  • Knot detail in front
  • 45-in length

and the second is a sleeveless lace dress

It’s the little black dress reinvented with refinement. This stunning plus size lace dress is designed in a flattering fit and flare silhouette. Designed in a silky crepe with an accordion pleated skirt and a lace top with no lining at the upper neckline for a sheer delicate accent.


  • Sleeveless
  • Crew-neck
  • Concealed back zipper closure
  • V-cutout at back with fabric-covered button-closure
  • 48-in length

I am not a fan of sleeveless but I can’t help but love the look of this dress.  I am sure it could be paired with a shawl of some sort to cover my arms if needed.

Both Dresses from Penningtons

And what goes better with a new dress than some new Lingerie to wear underneath it all.  For lingerie, I always check out Addition Elle because they carry the Ashley Graham line of plus sizes but this year it was the store collection from Déesse that caught my eye.  Although this was from last season so it’s already sold out but I still do love the lace and the colours.  I have a few other sets in the Femme Couture line and they are some of my favorite’s

Déesse Femme Couture Lace Bra and High-Cut Cross Dye Lace Panty

From Addition Elle

So they were just a few of the nice things I have come across whilst surfing the internet that if I could,  would add to my Christmas list.

What have you got on yours?

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Header picture by Larisa-K from Pixaby


Making The Most Of A Saturday Night


Saturday afternoon the wife and I had to go out and get some groceries because Sunday was supposed to be pretty crappy.  After returning from groceries our kid told us that they were invited over to a friend’s house for the night.  At this point, it’s already after 3 and I like to be ready for makeup and clothes by at least 4 but this would not be the case and since I was interrupted the last time I tried to dress I was not going to pass up this golden opportunity.

It was around 3:30 when we headed out to take the kid off to their friends and decided to take a trip to the second-hand store as well before heading back home.  There was not much to look at so we headed home so I could start our dinner and continue on with the night.  Supper was finished around 6 and headed off to have a shower and was half tempted to shave my legs but I thought I could get away with at least one more time before it’s really needed.  After my shower, I pondered what to wear and had me heart set on a new velvet dress I picked up but seeing as we still would have to trek outside to take the dog out later I decided to go casual with a black tank under a new mesh top DSC07414my wife had picked out for me and a nice pair of jeans.  We sat in bed for a bit and watched some youtube science videos before the dog had to be taken out one last time and I thought I could get away without taking my forms out but they really stood out (Pun Intended) underneath my coat so they came out before heading out of doors.  It was time for a few more youtube videos before the wife started to fall asleep so I grabbed my makeup kit and headed for the bathroom.

I am not sure if it was the fact that I am using older style CCFL bulbs in the bathroom but I felt my foundation looked terrible but I kept on going.  I had a hell of a time trying to keep my one eyelid from jumping all over the place which made it insanely difficult to apply my eyeshadow properly but I persevered and it turned out somewhat okay.  I used my Covergirl Smoky palette using the second from the left for all over the lid and then the third from the left to go over the outer corners of my eye,  the photo is not really the best but it’s a shimmery purple color. DSC05477  I grabbed my Maybelline The Falsies mascara IMG_20180909_120521and did my best,  it’s a blue color and I actually pulled it off without getting it all over my face.  Now came the biggest decision of all to finish off my makeup,  the Lipstick.  Now I don’t want to say that I have a lot of lipsticks…..but……I…..Have….A…..TON.

I scanned through all the ones I have and finally decided on one I have only tried on once,  Maybelline Color Sensational Ruby For Me.  DSC06921These lipsticks were supposedly tested on multiple skin types and are supposed to work for everyone.  The color is a satin red lipstick and I have to say I am partial to it.  So now that my makeup was all done I headed off to the living room to just sit and relax with the internet and a little bit of Minecraft on my trusty old Xbox 360.  The plan was to stay up till about midnight but I barely made it to 10.  Somewhere around 9:30, I could feel my eyelids getting really heavy and decided it was time to clean up and head off to bed.  I pulled out my trusty Olay daily facial wipes and proceeded to take off all my makeup,  even the mascara.  I then finished cleaning up the rest of my mess and then headed off to bed.

It may not seem like the most exciting night of all time but when my dressing is sporadic at best it’s nice to finally be able to pull it off even if only for a little bit.

Thanks For Reading.




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Giving Thanks


It’s that time of year again when the leaves change color and fall, the wind starts to get colder and thanksgiving is upon us again, well at least here in Canada it is. I think in this day and age we really do need to look back at what we have, to keep where you are going in perspective.

I am so thankful for my wife who has put up with all of my habits over the years, from the dressing to all the hobbies and the weird little things I do. She has been by my side no matter what and that pretty much seems to sum up our relationship. It has not been all fun and games, we have had our fair share of downs that were so far down I did not think there was any way back up,  but we came back better than ever.

I am Thankful that our child feels safe enough in our house that they can be themselves. I did a post way back talking about how our child came out as nonbinary and how easy it seemed for them to be able to tell us about how they felt.  The wife and I always made sure to tell our kid that there was nothing they could ever tell us that would change how we felt about them.  We always assured them they were loved and nothing could ever stop us from loving them.

I am thankful that I live in Canada especially with some of the stuff going on in other places in the world today.  For the most part, my rights as a human being are upheld

I am thankful that I was given the opportunity to finally go out and meet someone that shares the same likes as I do.  It was a great experience and I can’t wait to do it again.

It’s not a huge list but just some of the first few things that popped into my head.

I hope all my fellow Canadians have a great Thanksgiving with Family and Friends.

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My 100th Post, And… I Did A Thing!

100th post

It’s taken me 5 years, but I have finally reached my 100th post on Cynthia’s Crossdresser Journey, and to be quite honest, a journey it has been. When I started this I wasn’t even at the point where I was buying anything for myself nor would I have ever thought I would tell my kid or even meet up with a fellow Crossdresser, but all those have changed in the last 5 years. I now have no issues heading out and buying stuff for myself, my kid knows although I do not dress in front of them and coincidentally my 100th post fell just after I ended up going out and meeting another local CD.

Even I find it hard to believe at times that I have taken the time to write 100 posts, I am by no means a writer and at times find it very hard to make a cohesive narrative about myself but there are a few of my own posts that I do believe I hit the mark on and some of them are…

So before I get into the second half of this post I would just like to thank everyone who has been coming here to read my ramblings for the last 99 posts and has been able to put up with my crap sometime, Thank you very much.

And now onto the 100th Post

So back in A New Adventure, I had talked about going out for coffee with a couple of other local Crossdreser’s, at this point, it has not happened so that’s still up in the air. But at the same time, I was contacting them I was also messaging some other people I used to talk to.

Around 2004/2005 I started talking to the Wife of a local Crossdresser, we ended up meeting in an online group and started chatting. We hit it off pretty quick and we messaged back and forth for quite a long time. Eventually, we did end up meeting her for coffee but at that time her Significant Other could not attend. Fast forward a few years and as it happens life gets busy for everyone. I tried to at least keep in touch once a year just too see how everyone is doing. This year on my yearly email I was telling her how I was trying to get out more and meet more people like myself and she mentioned that her SO had attended a meeting locally and I should email and chat with him (We will call her Shelia). We emailed back and forth for a bit and we decided to head out some night and have a coffee.

I tried to pick a coffee spot that was close to where we both lived so it would be easier to get too, but hopefully not packed to the gills with people. I settled on one that was fairly close to both of us and we set the plans for Friday at 6:00 pm. I was surprisingly calm throughout week although I was getting anxious as the date grew closer. As Friday rolled around my wife started to remind me “Not to be late, you have coffee tonight” numerous times before I headed out in the morning, and luckily work seemed to go almost perfectly well which rarely ever happens especially on a Friday. I headed home, cleaned up and changed out of my work clothes and had a brief sit down, I fugured I needed to head out at about 5:30 but in my haste when hopping into the car I realized it was only 5:17, Oh well lets go anyways I thought. I arrived at the Tim Hortons at 5:30, WAY TO FREAKING EARLY. I found a spot at the end of the parking lot and parked. I scanned the parking lot again and did not see the vehicle Shelia said she would be driving. At this point I am starting to freak out a little bit, What is Shelia dosen’t show up, will we be able to talk, will we get along? not sure if it was the fact that I was nervous or the fact that I had been in the sun all day but I felt like I was on fire. The minutes seems to pass like hours while waiting but Shelia’s vehicle showed up. I got out and greeted Shelia. We headed inside and grabbed a drink and decided to talk out by the road on a bench where there was no one else.

We talked about everything under the sun, home life, spouses and work-life were all topics of conversation. And of course there is no way two Crossdressers could have a conversation without talking about fashion and makeup and I was also able to get some hints on where to pick up some decent forms and wigs as well. We also had some good laughs as well talking about some of our more hilarious dressing related incidents and just funny stuff. All and all I think we both had a good time talking and will be making some plans to head out for coffee again and maybe even a shopping trip

This was a great experience for me and I am so glad I went ahead and did it.

Thaks for reading my 100th post.


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What’s In My Tool Box?


One thing I have for sure learned is that you need the right tools to do a proper job when it comes to makeup. I was once more than happy to use those little sponge applicators that came packaged with eye shadows, I had no idea how much better a decent set of brushes would help with even simple eye looks.

I had had a conversation with a co-worker about her application techniques and she remarked that she never used lip liners and if she did need a nice outline she would only use a lip brush. Up until this point, I had never thought about really spending money on brushes because how much better could it possibly be? Turns out it can get way better. I did some research and dropped about $20.00 on a small brush set that consisted of DSC07334powder, eye shadow, smudge, concealer, and lip brush. I really only wanted the lip brush but the whole kit set me on the right path for bettering my makeup routine. The lip brush did help me outline and define my lips more than just using the bullet but it was when I tried the eye shadow brush that I really learned what the right tools can pull off. No more was my eyes a raccoon-like mask but now I could control the definition between the colors and with the smudge brush I could work the colors into each other, it was literally a game-changer for me.

I don’t spend a ton of money on brushes or tools and a few web searches will give you tons of results for some cheaper brands like E.L.F and Wet N’ Wild, they usually have some pretty decent reviews for their brushes and they are very affordable.


Foundation Sponge.

I started off getting some foundation sponges which are really great to apply foundation in my opinion.


I place a small amount on the back of my hand and with a wet sponge use a stippling motion to apply to my face. If I run out or need to build up the foundation I can simply add more to the back of my hand. I paid 5.00 for a package of 2 at Shoppers Drug Mart.

Foundation Brush.

I have picked up 2 different styles of foundation brushes. The E.L.F. pointed foundation brush and the Still flat brush. I have not yet really had a chance to sit down with these and see if they give me any better results as the sponge does, guess that is an idea for another post.


After watching a few Youtube makeup application videos I decided to pick up a beauty blender (or knock-off) sponge. I mainly use it to blend out my under eye concealer to lighten the area. Regular retail price at Shoppers Drug Mart is 8.00 but I think I picked it up on sale.


These can be used for foundation application as well but I find the I get more coverage from the flat sponge and I really like the pointed end on the blender to do the concealer under my eyes and blend it out.

Eye shadow.

Like I said at the beginning, I used to be happy with the little sponge applicators that came with all the eyeshadows for years (and still do) to apply my eye shadow. It was not until I picked up my first real set of brushes that contained an actual eye brush that I was swayed into spending more on tools. I have picked up a few more sets since then from E.L.F. by way of there Christmas gift sets which usually come with a large assortment of shadows plus at least 2 or 3 brushes. The smaller brushes let you have so much control over how much product you apply or even the thickness of the lines you want, for me, it was truly game-changing when it came to the finished product.


I still have issues with blush as far as control and actual placement of the application.  This brush does a decent job and lets you take control of the amount of product you can apply.



My E.L.F. Contouring brush came packaged with a contouring kit as well,  with 4 colors to define your face. It is a wide thick brush that does require a light hand when picking upDSC07324 the actual product.  The first time I used it I had to take off all my makeup and start again because I went way too heavy-handed in the dark color.



I had seen some videos showing people using fan brushes for highlight application and thought it would be a great idea to try. After some more research though it turns out most people say no to the fan brush. It’s a little too light to really pick up any product.  But this was a gift from the wife so I will try and find a decent use for it.



I have a few very nice and fluffy E.L.F. brushes for my powder application.  I have a total face brush and a powder brush.    The total face brush has a rounded tip to it and the powder brush has a flat top which works for stippling you setting powder onto your face.





The Eco-tools lip brush is a very thin stiff bristle brush perfect for lipstick application. I take it right off the bullet and use the edge of the brush lightly to try and line my lips then using it on the flat I can fill in the entire lip area


then go over them again straight from the bullet. I find this way gives me the best coverage. I wish I was a little better with lipstick,  even with outlining I end up with very small looking lips.  I have tried overlining but then I end up like a clown,  I need to find a happy medium.


Getting ready and Cleaning it all up.

Yeah, I guess these are technically not tools,  but they are also kept near my tools so I will include them.

From left to right:  Olay oil minimizing toner, Olay Complete combination / oily Moisturizer,  Mary Kay eye makeup remover, and Garnier Micellar water makeup remover.


I recently picked up the Toner to use after I shave as when I try to get really close before foundation application I find that the next day I am starting to break out.  I am hoping this will give that extra little clean up after to stop that.  So far I have had the chance to try it once and it did seem to limit the ammount of spots that popped up after shaving.

Olay complete Combination / oily moisturizer is truly great for the price.  It’s amazing that after I use this my face feels so soft,  it even amazes me some time.  Quick to set in and does not leave a greasy feeling,  with a very light scent.

Mary Kay oil-free eye makeup remover does just what it says it does.  It will remove even waterproof makeup and really just peels away the eyeshadow with a couple swipes.

Garnier Micellar water in normal to sensitive skin.  I bought this one a while back and have yet to test it on a whole face full of makeup.  I really wanted this for lipstick alone just in case some of the ones I have are staining.

Not shown are my Olay daily facial clothes which I really like as well.  Not even sure they still make the same ones I have.  I purchased in a double pack and they are so good I usually cut them in half and it still has a ton of cleaning power.


A final note is keeping your brushes clean. These are coming in contact with your skin and can become dirty quite fast. There are literally hundreds of website telling you how to and how often you should be cleaning your brushes and in the long run cleaning them can only increase the length of time you can use them for.

So there you have it, all the brushes I currently use or own. It’s not as huge of a collection as some may have but so far they either all have a purpose of I am still working on using them.

Have you picked up any brushes yet? Do you plan on it? and if you did and have how did you feel when you used them?

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The Wish list

Wish List

I was in my mid 30’s before I really accepted my Crossdressing so I really still do have some things now that I am in my early 40’s that I want to cross off my wish list. Over the years I have done a few things I wanted to do and they are…

  • Tell my Spouse
  • Shave my legs
  • Buy clothes and lingerie myself
  • Buy Makeup myself.

But I still have a few left. So here they are in no particular order.

Have my other ear pierced

I have had my left ear pierced for years now with 2 holes. It would be so much easier and nicer looking if I was just to take the leap and get the other ear pierced. The only thing holding me back at this point is the price. Right now the price is the main thing holding me back as having a professional piercing job done cost $40 per hole including hardware the last time I checked. Until the time when I can afford it, I may just pick up a couple of pairs of clip on’s.

Have a professional make over done / Makeup lessons.

Ever since I was a little kid and even before I even knew what a Crossdresser was, I had always been enthralled by makeup. I would always slow down just a little bit walking through the cosmetics department at Sears so I could take it all in.

I think it would be a great experience to be able to get a full makeover done. This is an experience I have always wanted to try just to be able to get some professional pointers and possible help with my own application. I am currently looking into making something like this happen, although at this point I would just like someone to be able to talk with to get more personalized makeup options so I can stop wasting money.

Buy clothes without hiding behind a list.

Yeah I know,  I already go out and buy things on my own,  but if asked I always say I am looking for things for my wife.  To be honest I have only ever been asked if I needed help in the clothing store twice and have been asked way more times in the makeup aisle.  Even though I have measured myself and know my size I have found that even two skirts from the same company and in the same size can fit drastically different.  It would be way easier if I could just ask to try things on to see if it fits properly.  I have contacted the head office for Addition Elle and they say the store is aware and would be accommodating but it’s only my fear and the fact that I don’t want to make other shoppers uncomfortable.

Manicure / Pedicure.

This one made the list,  but not really something I would probably do more than once.  I really do enjoy painting my own toes and making my own fake nails,  but I would like to say I have gone at least once.

Go out dressed

I had decided a long time ago that I never really wanted to go outside dressed, I was too afraid to be noticed as there is no way I am going to blend in at 5’11” in bare feet and over 6 with heels. But after a chat with a former coworker I rethought the whole idea and decided that I would like to go out just once at least to say I have done it. She even suggested that maybe heading to a bigger city like Toronto or Ottawa and head out in one of them.

So that’s my wish list, do you have one of your own?

Please leave it in the comments.

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A New Adventure.

a new adventure

I have found over the years as I get older I am needing more friends that share my interests when concerned with Crossdressing. I find myself quite lonely not being able to talk to anyone regarding clothes or makeup and as I have stated here many times before, my Wife is not a fan of fashion or makeup and only deals with them on an as-needed basis.

Prior to the Facebook era I was able to find like-minded people online that I would happily chat with for hours about clothes, makeup, and other such things but those chat engines like ICQ, Yahoo, and the likes have all dried up over the years and the last time I tried to visit any of them I was just met with empty “Friends” list. I tried newer sites such as Twitter and Facebook but I found them almost impossible to make any real contact with other humans.  I was kinda getting the feeling I was alone.

Then, while I was off recuperating from an injury, I joined a (Yet Another) CD oriented website like I have many times before. It was a newer one that I had not heard and seemed to have a higher percentage of Canadian Gals than I had seen before. After posting my initial greeting I was told to use the member’s search function to see if there was anyone in my area that I may be able to chat with. After a few searches I found what I was looking for, another Gal that lives in the same area as me, we will call her Joyce. I quickly sent a friend request and a message introducing myself. We messaged back and forth a few times and not much else came of it at the time and I (Like I usually do) stopped going to the site daily.

It had been a few months since I had talked to Joyce so I sent a quick message just to see how she had been doing. It was a few weeks later that I received an answer, she had been busy with summer things and was currently now meeting other CDs in our city. The Gals have been meeting at a local restaurant for coffee and to chat. Joyce then asked if I would like to head out for coffee with them at some point. I was excited at this prospect but also had equal parts doubt’s as well. I told Joyce I appreciated the offer and that I would have to discuss the idea with my wife as well, she was more than agreeable to this.

My wife has always been supportive of my dressing and has said I should get more friends with the same interests but still worries about my safety even though I am 5’11” and built like a linebacker.  I showed her the messages and she encouraged me to head out and meet these ladies if the plans could fall into place,  she said not to chicken out because I would regret it later on.

So here I sit a few days later waiting for an email for a possible coffee date with a few other local Crossdresser,  never thought this would ever happen.  When I find out more I will let you all know.

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